Hope all you lupies were able to have a very Merry Christmas.
I have been feeling so much better since I got my gall bladder out. It's like I got a refill of energy. Is this what a remission feels like? Not sure, I just know I like it! Not totally myself (yet), but I am liking what I am feeling. I have had a horrible head ache for about 3 weeks, but I am getting used to it now. Today have had a few dizzy spells, but other than that, things are fantastic (at least on the lupus/fibromyalgia front). Dealing with some issues in my personal life and I am sure that has something to do with these symptoms, but I will make it through.
I am working on finding myself. I want to be that woman that people look up to and admire. I want my sense of humor back. I used to be quite the comedian - I will find it again. Working on renewing my faith. Basically I am just renewing my mind. Oh yeah - I am also rebuilding my physical self - 64 lbs down and only 109 to go! Whoot whoot! I will do it!!!
"You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, the wind, but you can change yourself. That is something you have charge of." - Jim Rohn
I am working on that quote. I cannot control my illness, other people or other situations. I can control how I feel (mentally), how I react and what battles matter and which don't, I can control what situations I choose to be in. I am learning about setting boundaries. If you don't respect me, you should at least "pretend" you do when you are with me, otherwise I don't have to be around you. I am tearing down walls that I have spent years building and I am putting up walls where I should have put them years ago. This is going to be quite an adventure. I realize I have set some pretty high goals for myself. There will be highs and lows, but I am looking forward to this new me.
"I really think that tossing and turning all night should be considered exercise."