"Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you." Isaiah 60:1
This is the craziest set of diseases that I have heard of or felt. New symptom - Now, I don't hardly sleep at all. And I am still so tired! One extreme to the other: sleeping all the time and tired all the time or hardly sleeping at all and tired all the time. What happened to the happy medium???
I go to bed because my body needs the rest, but my brain won't shut down and so I don't get sleep...when I finally drift off into slumber, it is short lived and I find myself WIDE AWAKE. I turn on the radio, but the voices on the songs keep me awake, I change the channel to classical and my imagination kicks in. I turn off the radio and listen to the silence. I turn on the t.v., but the light on the screen keeps me awake. I pray - and I find a million things to pray about. I think about reading my Bible, but I have to turn on the light, so then I fall asleep reading and the light wakes me up. So, I pet the dog. I talk to God in my head and then I toss and turn. Somewhere around 4 a.m. I finally fall into that deep sleep that I have chased all night. 6 a.m. - the dog starts nudging me to go outside. Aaargh!
My hips have started to throb again - but I am getting pretty used to that. I find myself being overly snappy - is it because I am tired? because I am stressed? because I hurt? Or just all of the above?
I have been dealing with an awful lot of personal issues, but I thank God that He has shown me how strong I truly am. I was trying to "just survive" before. You know what? That is NOT what God wants me or any of us to do! God made me a promise and I intend to go after it with everything I have in me!
I will ask myself everyday "what can I do today to avoid survival mode and stay in BLESSED mode?"
So - I ask you: What can you do to stop just getting by and move toward the blessings that our Lord and Savior has promised you?